We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.-Joseph Campbell
Last week I found myself in utter panic mode! I thought to myself “where is my life going!?” and for that question, no matter how much I thought I knew, I reaaaally didn’t have an answer for it.
A few years ago my life was all planned out… well sorta. Once I left uni, life was gonna be one big easy road, no bumps, no detours- how stupid was I!?
Needless to say, I had my head stuck in one big pink fluffy cloud. Not once did I consider the possible obstacles that could hit me smack bang in the face!…like ouch!
Sooooo, I just had a baby and finished uni all in a tinnnnnny timeframe- but for some reason, I was still eager to move on to the next thing straight away. I thought my chances of getting anywhere in life would be ruined if I was to take a break (A well deserved break at that!) and that was all wrong…!
My lists were getting longer and more unrealistic. I had my heart set on finding a job, getting married, finding a home, becoming a YouTube star, starting a masters degree , blablablablabla… (god, I don’t wanna bore you but the list really does go on forever).
Although, over time, I began to realise that everything will not be handed to me on a big shiny silver platter and I really had to work for what I wanted
But how, you say, with what time you say? Well…
It’s Time to Stop!
Honestly, there is no rush! Sometimes, we need to breathe and take things at our own pace.
After actually waking up and smelling the coffee, I took a step back and realised… I am only 21 for goodness sake! I could hear my inner self shouting “YOU HAVE YOUR WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF YOU SHAYLA” and it was right, I really did.
There is no need to rush things what. so. EVER.
So Shayla, What Next?
Since having Maya many people have asked me, “Shayla where do you see yourself in the next 5 years” and the truth is, I have no clue what will be happening in the next 5 minutes let alone 5 years! pffsht
Buuuut, what I do know is that I am ready for whatever the world wants to throw at me… I think!
So at this current point in my life, it is safe to say that I don’t know what the f*** is going on right now and honestly, I don’t mind. I see it as living my life on auto pilot, I am letting things control me for once.
Undoubtably, Maya is my priority and I’m enjoying my time as a mother, and even that is crazy tough in itself. But really, you have to remember, babies grow up ridiculously fast! One minute it’s all goo goo gaga’s then the next they’re escaping from you at every chance they get!
CHERISH EVERY LAST SECOND!
All things considered, I think the reason behind making this blog post was to remind you guys that it is fine not to have a current direction in life as your path will eventually find you.
Don’t stress about where you think you need to be and what you need to be doing at this point. Instead, understand that you will have to work hard to get to your destination and travel at your own speed… at least that’s how I’m looking at it!
Until next time, バイバイ !